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Get it straight. [28 Aug 2007|01:46pm]
Let me set a few things straight for a few of you who think you know everything.

Yes I moved out to Katy. And yes I moved back in Humble. So what?

No I was NEVER engaged. No I was NOT married. Nor was I anywhere close to being.

I'm going to school. I'm working. I'm a 21 year old adult. Therefore I can do whatever I want to do.

Last time I checked, I didn't need anyone's approval. If I want your opinion, then I'll ask you for it. If I come to you and talk to you about something, then fine. Otherwise, keep your mouth shut. Get your story straight before you even think about opening your mouth and telling my business.
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[28 Jan 2007|01:17am]
a year ago today i was hurt more than i ever thought anyone could ever be.

and i still cry everytime i think about that night and everything that happened and how forgiving i was.

a lot of times i wish i could just forget about. erase it from my memory for good.

but i can't.

the saying is true...

"you can forgive, but you can't forget."
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[03 Jan 2007|09:00am]
Hearing those words it makes me weak
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[26 Nov 2006|07:49pm]
Most of the time I don't even understand why I do the things I do.
Don't ask me why.
I just don't.
And sometimes when I do the things I do, I tend to think they stem from crap I went through in the past.
And I HATE that.
I feel like I can't be myself.
Because everytime I do open up and be myself, I get hurt.

Can I just ask why?
That's all I've ever wanted to ask.
Both of you.

The 5 hr drive there and 5hr drive back guy.
And then there's endless months of that gray area, the uncertain area guy.

Both 2 different periods in time.
But got hurt by both in stupid situations.
And it's preventing me to put it into drive and go.
I'm stuck in park. Afraid to put it into drive.
Afraid on what the road ahead of me has in store.

I'm sorry for bringing it up.
But I just needed to vent.
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[05 Nov 2006|03:05pm]
Sleeping in til 2:45pm is amazing... but so not a good idea.
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ouch [22 Oct 2006|12:50am]
[ mood | drained ]

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my car after the accident my mom was in.
atleast she's ok.
and atleast it was the other person's fault.
it happened on the way to the funeral home.
my mom, and her brothers lost a close friend.
so please keep them in your prayers.

this weekend was fun.
had friday off which is always nice.
i got to see all my friends that i haven't seen in forever!
and i got to meet a bunch of cool new people.
got drunk and didn't go to bed til almost 5am!

sweet dreams, good night!
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Alive [29 Sep 2006|07:24pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Been busy busy busy.
I'm super sick.
Other than that, life is good.
I'm alive, barely, but alive. :)
And my Astros are finally pulling through.

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My life RIGHT now [20 Jul 2006|07:59am]
[ mood | sniffly ]

This is what my summer has consisted of...
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Some more work.

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Small but great vacation to Florida.

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Lots of time spent with Chris! <3

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And a little me time. :)

Party Layn's and I threw last night couldn't have been any better. The turn out was incredible and she really was surprised :) Only 3 weeks after this week of work left and I couldn't be any sadder. Can't wait for Sunday though! Woo!

Have a *GrEaT* rest of the week!
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dt 2006 [27 Jun 2006|07:44am]
[ mood | sick ]

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Camp '06 [22 May 2006|11:48pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

So I have REALLY enjoyed the last week and a half off.
And I still have the rest of the week off.
And I must say, it's been SO nice!
Bumming around, sleeping in late. The whole 9 yards.

Camp can't get here soon enough.
My new co-workers = FLIPPIN' HILARIOUS!
Camp is going to be so crazy and fun!
My "little sisters" loved their gifts. :)
I'm soooo excited!!!

Here's to Summer 2006! :)

PS. Dear Mom,
I'm not really digging this whole you borrowing my car thing. Your Cavalier just doesn't go as fast as my Durango. I'd appreciate it if you'd take your car back and gimme mine. I think you're done with your errands lol!
Love you,

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Summer has started! [16 May 2006|12:37am]
[ mood | happy ]

Dear Astros,
Please do not lose on Wednesday since I will be at the game. I get to see you hopefully beat Barry Bonds' team and I would appreciate it if ya'll would win so I don't leave in a bad mood! :) Good luck and I'll see ya'll on Wednesday!!!


My summer has started off great! Hope yours has too.

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Old Times [26 Apr 2006|11:31am]
Weird. I was sitting in class today and it hit me.

I miss sitting outside and waiting for the directors to unlock the bandhall doors. I miss Fridays and getting donuts. I miss meeting in the BH after class and just casually talking and running into friends just for a quick chat. I miss skipping class in the morning and going to Sonic or Starbucks instead. I miss sitting in the uniform room and talking for endless hours or playing cards and just forgetting about everything and anything. I miss eating mashed potatoes and chicken fried steak. I miss coming to the lunch room and seeing the table full of friends and everyone arguing about who sits where (ok so maybe not the arguing part) but I miss just talking. I miss the bus rides and all the songs we used to sing. I miss the dancing. I miss being able to slack off during class because you've already taken all the classes you needed to graduate and now you were just sitting in a class because they didn't have triple early release or triple late arrival. I miss running in the parking lot away from Golf Cart Willy. I miss the countless practices in the blistering hot sun. I miss all of it. Those years went by too damn fast. I was looking through pictures when I went home this past weekend, and just thought back while I was laying in bed. The bus trip to Atlanta. No poopie on bus 1. haha! Our bus was the badass bus. :) I miss it all and I miss having my closest friends within arms reach. I miss all of you guys. And I wish we never had to grow up.

"Bee happy."

Think back to your senior year!!!

Your senior year in high school is supposed to be "the best year of your life." Let's see how much you remember.

1. Who was your best friend? Beemer, Kasey, Katie, Park, Darrick, Carbs, Steve and Peter.

2. What sports did you play? None, unless you count Ultimate Frisbee ;)

3. What kind of car did you drive? Didn't drive til the end of my senior year.

4. It's Friday night. Where are you? Either at a football game, orrrr out with friends

5. Were you a party animal? Not in highschool

6. Were you in the "In Crowd"? There wasn't really an "In Crowd"

7. Ever skip school? Who didn't?!?

8. Ever smoke? Never

9. Were you a nerd? YESS! Not really

10. Did you get suspended/expelled? Heck no!

11. Can you sing the fight song?? YES! Me and JR rock at that song! :) We had to remember it for English our freshman year.

12. Who was your favorite teacher? SENORA WOOD!!!

13. Favorite class? Spanish.. all 4 years!

14. What was your school's full name? Humble High School

15. School mascot? Wildcat

16. Did you go to prom? ooooh yeah :)

17. If you could go back and do it over, would you? A few things

18. What do you remember most about graduation? Walking across the stage and then throwing my cap in the air. Then Project Grad.

19. Favorite memory of your senior year? All my friends and just everything. Especially Prom. <3

20. Were you ever posted up on the senior wall? I don't think we had a senior wall.

21. Did you have a job your senior year? Nope

22. Who did you date? Steven

23. Are you still together? Nope, that's been over and done with for a while now.

24. Where did you go most often for lunch? The Cafeteria, or Steven would always fix good sandwiches! Holla!

25. What did you do after graduation? Project Grad. :) Bittersweetness.

26. Biggest regret of high school? There weren't any.

~~ Fill it out and see what you remember from your senior year!
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[16 Apr 2006|12:44pm]
Happy Easter!!!

Happy Bithday Sebatian!!!
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Just think about it. [04 Apr 2006|10:41am]
[ mood | hurt ]

Saw a man in the movies that didn't have a heart
How I wish I could give him mine
Then I wouldn't have to feel it breaking all apart
And this emptiness inside would suit me fine

It's times like these
I wish I were the tin man
You could hurt me all you wanted
And I'd never even know
I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't need a soul

I couldn't see your leavin' comin'
You took me by surprise
Even now it still seems like a dream
But I know I can't be dreamin'
'Cause as I lay down each night
The pain so great that it won't let me sleep

It's times like these
I wish I were the tin man
You could hurt me all you wanted
And I'd never even know
I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't need a soul
Well I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't miss you so

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Too good to be true [18 Mar 2006|09:42pm]
magical. 'nuff said.

My Spring Break was incredible. It's not even over yet! I should really be in bed as to seeing that I have to be up before 8am tomorrow. I'll post pictures on facebook or whatever sometime soon. I have A LOT more pictures that I need to scan so who knows when I'll get all that taken care of. But I just wanted to drop in, make sure everyone's doing ok and that everything is going good for everyone as well. Only 7 more weeks to go and then the summer begins! I can't wait! A few of you know why ;) I hope everyone enjoys their last day of SB! Take care!!! :)

PS. Thank YOU! :)
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[19 Feb 2006|01:49am]
A broken promise.
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No Pain, No Gain. [15 Feb 2006|11:51am]
[ mood | hungry ]

A 3 mile run.
A swollen knee.
BSed homework.
A hurting ankle.
A 2 hour phone convo.
A 2:45am bedtime.

I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up.

Please pray for my Grandpa.

What if I want you to care?

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CUUUUUUUTE stuff! [10 Feb 2006|12:32am]
[ mood | awake ]

*To every guy that walks on the outside of a sidewalk.*
*To every guy that cooks dinner for her.*
*To every guy that regrets hurting her.*
*To every guy who knows which girl he wants.*
*To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."*
*To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."*
*To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.*
*To every guy who can't go a day without hearing her voice.*
*To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.*
*To every guy who has given her flowers just because.*
*To every guy that said he would die for her.*
*To every guy that really would.*
*To every guy that did what she wanted to do.*
*To every guy that cried in front of her.*
*To every guy that she cried in front of.*
*To every guy that holds hands with her.*
*To every guy that kisses her with meaning.*
*To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.*
*To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.*
*To every guy who would give their jacket up.*
*To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.*
*To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes.*
*To every guy that would give his seat up.*
*To every guy that just wants to cuddle.*
*To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.*
*To every guy who told his secrets to her.*
*To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.*
*To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.*
*To every guy that believed in her dreams.*
*To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.*
*To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.*
*To every guy that walked her to her car.*
*To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.*
*To every guy that actually listened.*
*To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in his face.*
~This one is for you...~

"You may not be his first, his last or his only... He's cared about someone before and possibly will again, but if he cares for you now then what else matters? He's not perfect and you aren't either, the two of you will never be perfect, but if he can make you laugh at least once, hold onto him and give him all you can. He is probably not going to quote poetry, he is most likely not going to be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break. So don't hurt him, don't change him and don't expect more than he can give. Don't over analyze, smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there."

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I need to pass this test. [01 Feb 2006|10:10pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

It's hard to study when your mind is somewhere else.

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I don't want to relive these last few days. [31 Jan 2006|10:47pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

It's been a one of those weeks. Worrying. Sick/empty pit feeling in the bottom of your stomach. Crying for hours upon hours. It isn't fun. It's painful, and that's the only way to describe these last few days. Painful.

Ever see stuff that happens and you think to yourself "I don't know what I would do if that ever happened to me. or That would never happen to me. Yeah I used to think that. And you keep thinking that, until it happens to you. Then you're stuck, and you have no idea what to do.
But like I've said. It's been one of those weeks.

Without my two best friends, I wouldn't have stayed sane. So thanks Dee and Layna.

Sometimes in life you have to learn how to forgive and forget. You can always forgive, but it takes a little time to forget. And I've already forgiven you, and now all I'm asking for is time.

It's been an emotional rollercoaster for both of us.

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